I've just read shirley from meek n mild blog post HERE and to be honest I feel the exact same way as her. I'm doing a criminology degree that I am not at all motivated to do. I came to uni basically because its what my mum wanted me to do. My only aim in life is to make my mother happy so I did as I was told. I wont say that she was the only constituting factor as to why I came because having a degree or even being able to attain one is a GREAT opportunity but I just feel like its not for me.
I and some people have always known that im not an academic person. I'm very mediocre and may just scrape on a 2;1 but I've never been an A or 1st class student. As the years have gone by I have always just gotten enough to make it to the next stage but even doing that was very hard. I feel like im stuck between a rock and a hard place because I try very hard but I'm never ever good enough.
I want to be a fashion stylist which has nothing to do with what I'm doing know so I just feel like im wasting everyones time and money on a degree that has nothing to do with the career that I aim to achieve. Uni is so hard for me right now and im always complaining on twitter and to people and I just feel like others and myself are sick and tired of hearing me moan about it.
A few of my friends have been there for me but I just feel like the people that should aren't really there but that is no fault of their own because everyone has their own life to live I guess. I just feel like nobody understands...
There are so many personal battles going on right now that are making my degree even harder than it needs to be and to be honest I feel just like giving up even though I've got two months left! I also feel like everyone is making it out that im being really dramatic but university really not that easy! I have a 15,000 dissertation a 3,500 word essay two 3,000 and 5 exams to complete in two months! There is just NO time!
Today I posted this picture on instagram (melswardrobe) which basically depicts exactly how I feel. Like yeah haha its funny but after I make these jokes I just go back into my depressed ways and feel alone again because the situation remains!
Everyone has this 'get on with' it mentality and that's just not for me. I have faith in the lord and I pray but prayer and worry do not coincide so right now my prayers feels useless.
Its amazing because I never heard anyone else in there final years complain like this but I guess every one is different. I just feel like I'm going to be disappointing a lot of people on graduation day which makes all of this that much more worse...
Sorry that I'm not doing as many blogposts as I said this is one of the reasons why so I hope you guys understand. Thanks for coming on here and leaving such lovely comments. You guys actually put a smile on my face!
If any other people feel discourage by education lets run away to the mountains and feed the billy goats with our essays!
Hope all is well